A Crazy Turn… Being vulnerable to uncertainty vs. negative belief system – A review from a novice 7 Aug 2021August 8, 2021 Thus I've heard, the blessed Gauthama Siddhartha, the Buddha, had told us: Not to see the plans you make in thoughts as permanent or certain. Not to cling to what you…
A Crazy Turn… When I see you as “than me”… 18 Jul 2021 Through those little curious girly eyesA world so big and beautifulAn ocean of possibilitiesI saw before I started ... To look through your eyesand compare you with meOnly to define…
Community… Heal thyself – A book that helps queer heal themselves 5 May 2021May 5, 2021 Note: This blog post is my way of thanking Allan Downs, the author of The Velvet Rage, and my psychologist Beau Growcott who has been working with me and walking…
Lovers… That other unaccepting half 7 Mar 2021March 8, 2021 All those little incidents that felt so darkWhen I saw you treat me with an unaccepting cast;I got busy collecting them with my teary sad heart! Now I give them…
A Crazy Turn… It’s a question of them knowing if their lives are worth saving. 6 Mar 2021March 6, 2021 It was two weeks ago when I last met B (PhD). I was not only heavily intoxicated, but was peaking a toxic shame cycle. I couldn't remember the last time…
A Crazy Turn… “So you think you can judge?” asked God 9 Feb 2021February 9, 2021 In my early life, I was judged heavily, and I judged in return. I picked sides, and I decided what was good, bad, and ugly. I mean, that was what…
A Crazy Turn… Sorry – An apology for mistakes I’ve made in my words 8 Feb 2021 Words, merely a tool to communicate our opinion, emotion, experience, or some random garbage wrapped as our story. But, they can do a lot of damage. Whether we attack someone,…
Artists… Enough – Accepting the delta between 8 Feb 2021February 8, 2021 Each of us sings our song called "My Life." The lyrics, the key, the tune, the melody, only we know. But, we hear harmonies from time to time from the…
Analysis… Who should make the move first – A dating dilemma 8 Jan 2021January 8, 2021 If you are in a stage in life where you may ask for first or next dates from a "random stranger" you've met, I am confident that you have faced…
Introduction… Perfect Dream vs Imperfect reality 3 Jan 2021 Hello my blog readers. First of all, thank you so much for the following. Today, I wanted to share with you some of my singing attempts. This was done a…
Community… Closing the door on 2020 1 Jan 2021 https://youtu.be/iVRg04MOj18 At the age of 40, I now remember at least 35 or so New Year's Dawns. Each New Year's Dawn we try to come up with resolutions, and consider…
Christmaas… It’s a special day for the world 24 Dec 2020December 24, 2020 It's a special day for the worldBut, thousands of years ago, was it this day? Then again, if we celebrate his existence and have a dedicated day, does it really…
Analysis… My journey in the poverty cycle and homeless cycle and lessons learnt to work towards a better world 24 Dec 2020 https://youtu.be/JtU8xquogN0 As some of you may already know, I migrated to Australia in 2010, just hours before my 30th birthday to start over new, with a bag full of hopes…
Community… To feel sorry for ourselves, only to hate ourselves again 23 Dec 2020December 23, 2020 This morning, I was refering to some of my conversations with my psycologist with my mother, who has been staying with me since February, 2020. When I referered to my…
Analysis… Tolerance, Acceptance, Forgiveness, and Loving-Kindness – A video blog 20 Dec 2020December 21, 2020 Introduction A short video about a personal journey and observations around Hate, Forgiveness, and Loving-Kindness and the relationship it has to tolerance and acceptance. Video https://youtu.be/5Z0R4CQA_yE Transcript 0:00:00.399,0:00:03.840my name is…
A Crazy Turn… Rich little me! A story about the blessed “Me” 18 Dec 2020December 19, 2020 Note: This blog is a continuation from The Poor Little me! A story about the Victim Me!. As the author, I highly recommend you to read it before reading this,…
A Crazy Turn… Poor little me! A story about the Victim “Me”… 18 Dec 2020December 19, 2020 Introduction Has anyone ever told you You need to learn to live on your own. Be independent, and learn to love yourself. Then only you can share your life with…
Community… Shame 30 Nov 2020November 30, 2020 I started seeing a Psychologist about 3 weeks ago. By third week, I really look forward to seeing him. Its like Saturday night date night. All other boys and girls…
A Crazy Turn… A walk towards “my” community through Pride Tribe 29 Oct 2020October 29, 2020 Introduction I would be hesitant to claim anything as "My", as I know, that once this form ends, when I finally die, there is nothing I would take with "Me",…
A Crazy Turn… Dear Great Spiritual Teahers of the present, what is it like to be you, can you please let me know? 25 Oct 2020October 25, 2020 Introduction By now, if you have followed my blog, or my story, you would know that Loneliness is a friend, I have had for most of my life. One would…
A Crazy Turn… A Noel that came along – Part II – Noel’s Story in Noel’s Words 24 Oct 2020 Note: This blog post is a two part series. Please check https://nimeshe.blog/2020/10/24/a-noel-that-came-along-part-i/ for an introduction. Dear Readers,This is Noel's story. Who is Noel you may ask? Just like Nimeshe, he…
A Crazy Turn… A Noel that came along – Part I – Introduction 24 Oct 2020October 24, 2020 Nimeshe's Introduction of Noel Noel Jason Kelly, a random stranger I met via a Gay dating app, who offered a massage, in exchange for a frienship. We spoke quite a…
Analysis… “Frank” vs “Frank” – A thank you note 20 Oct 2020October 20, 2020 Note: The picture used for cover photo is not mine and was copied from AOM Journals Website. I haven't referenced the article. We moved to an area called Malabe/Kaduwela in…
A Crazy Turn… Another imagination with some careful observation of self 18 Oct 2020October 18, 2020 In 2017, I was diagnosed with HIV. Since I knew the advancement in medicine, I knew this was manageable, but it shifted my energy again, as I felt my life…
A Crazy Turn… The art of flying solo to groundbreaking heights in your mind 18 Oct 2020October 18, 2020 Once upon a time, a little ugly single engine propellor, had decided he was not good enough to fly and was not needed Then came a little war ship, who…
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