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Sachsenhausen Concentration Camp – A Concentration of Ego and Helplessness

On Saturday, 7th September 2019, I visited the Sachsenhausen Concentration Camp.

I went with a tour operator named Insider Tour Berlin, which I highly recommend.

Insider Tour Berlin

I went to the West meeting point, and they had a lot of helping guides making sure none of us got lost. An Extremely friendly bunch. They give you really personal attention.

A tour guide named Chloe, an extremely friendly girl originally from England, welcome the group. While she gave us personal attention, her task was to take us half way to meet with Martin, a Tour Guide who was born and raised in Oranienburg, Germany, the town where the first Concentration Camp, Sachsenhausen is located.

Martin’s knowledge about history, and his passion about sharing his knowledge to contribute towards a better world was like a fountain of love. He didn’t just give us the historic facts. He got us to imagine, think, take our time, question, and really understand the kind of mentality of humans who built and operate these camps, who witnessed, and those unfortunate souls, the victims.

He was my hero and my teacher for that day.


What I learnt from Martin

An Introduction

24th March 1933, an act was passed that enabled SA (Assault Division) backed by Adolf Hitler to legally continue his madness.

What was formally Thuggery and Unacceptable now became legal.

Somewhere in mid March the same year (1933), first SA Concentration camp was setup in Sachsenhausen.

There had been so much thought and planning gone into the design and architecture of the camp itself

Whilst the entire design was to serve a purpose for Hitler’s and his Follower’s needs, I could not stop seeing a Buddhist Stupaya (ස්ථූපය), Chaitya (චෛත්‍යය), or Da-Gaba (දාගැබ) in the aerial view of the main camp area that is encapsulated within a triangle.

What vastly different purposes for the same identity given for a pictorial object in my mind!

What vastly different human beings behind the same!

One was intended for harm, created by an Evil Man!

One was intended to save what remains of a Noble Man!

Both preserves a Man and a Message!

Later, this camp was taken over by SS or Schutzstaffel, an elite and recognised group of inhuman humans!

They ran the camp from 1936 June up to 1945.

An Administration Centre for all activity was built in 1938. A quite large building, probably employed a large number of people, as the prisoners increased from around 2000 to around 14000.

This building as well as most other buildings within the Camp, including the beautiful houses on the road on the way to the Camp had been built by the prisoners.

The houses built by prisoners, for the workers of the Camp, who tortured their minds, bodies, and spirit.

I wonder what went through these prisoners minds!

P.S: I was trying to take a picture of the house, but the group of beautiful people who visited the camp with me that day coincidentally was walking past.

The original camp became too small and the initial triangular design, around which a lot of other structures were already put up, could not scale to the new needs.

The Camp which was 25 hectares, ended up being 388 hectares.

The Welcome Sign

At the welcome, the prisoners were told that they would find peace here. And they had no prior knowledge of what goes on in there.

The one true thing humans fundamentally desire the most!

A state of peace. Both external and internal.

And the Evil captured in a Human Shell mocked the prisoners with this!

This is so sick!

It makes me sick!

But, having had to go through the torture and pain, they would have been wanting peace.

Why are humans so mean to each other?

Early days, everyone had to shave their heads as soon as they entered the camp, they were allowed to keep their clothes. But, in 1938 they introduced the striped pyjamas.

The Female – Bottom of the Food Chain

Female rights clearly were nonexistent during this time. The camp was mostly male, and a handful of females had been selected to work as sex slaves for selected prisoners!

Yep! They had to go through the same pain, and more!

Sex is a beautiful thing,

but here,

with no consent or control, having to go through laborious physical work during day time while processing so much about their losses, and without no financial, or any other incentive or reward,

they were forced to sexually please the superior breed!

The Male!

How many died? Who died? Why?

The first mass murder happened in Sachsenhausen in 1941, when over 10,000 prisoners of war from Soviet Union were killed.

Thousands of educated people including professors were killed here.

A man who clearly didn’t value knowledge or wisdom!

Jews made up from 10% to 20% of prisoners.

And there were other labels, categories, and subcategories! Each label had a badge.

– Political prisoners of war
– Criminals (Unsure what constituted to a crime, when the biggest Criminal of recorded history is deciding)
– Homosexuals
– Prostitutes
– Alcoholics
– Gamblers
– Homeless
– Socially Different (Once again 💁‍♂️)
– Free Thinkers
– Communists

Danish and Norwegian, Aryan prisoners were treated a little better.

Homosexuals and some other inferior prisoners had to do dangerous jobs like defusing bombs.

426 bombs found!

Royal Airforce only shared their flight plan 10+ years ago, and now it’s getting easier to locate these bombs that were used 3/4 a century ago!

Last one found 4 weeks ago. 🤦‍♂️

Camp had a hospital, but more than 90% didn’t have access.

In November, 1936 Gustav Lamper was killed in a “hat game”, a cruel method that forced the prisoner to go to an area called “Neutral Zone”, by throwing their hat to the zone, and ordering them to pick the hat.

The officials could shoot any prisoner with no questions asked if the prisoner crossed the line to Neutral Zone.

When Ego Driven Self Validation kicks in, taking a human life had looked like a game!

And Ego is Ego!

When unaware, the thirst never quenches!

The method got famous and soon was followed in other Camps.

From year 1945 to 1950 thousands of Germans both part of the SA, SS, Etc and not voluntarily involved with Hitler’s madness were imprisoned here. Many died over hunger and diseases.

Hate! More Hate!

Somehow there has been an endless supply of man made identities to kill and harm another man!

Some other torture tricks that made it to the books of history, while some torturous techniques would have only been seen by God!

In the morning roll call, a Jew would be selected to exercise naked in front of everyone before the day’s work.

The prisoner accommodation itself was a torture technique.

The tour group was shown inside of the camp setup that was for the Jews.

It consisted two sleeping sections, each having bunk beds. Each bunk bed had 3 levels. There were 25 such beds on each section. Originally designed for 150 prisoners. But later years, each bed had to be shared by 3 prisoners, who had to share 1 level of a bunk bed.


Food was a watery cabbage soup with a slice of bread, about 500 calories for these people to do hard labour.


They had to wake up 4.15 am every morning, make bed, clean room, wash up and go to the toilet, and by 4.45 they had to make it to the morning role call. If they didn’t make it in time, they will be penalised. The toilets were VERY limited considering even the original intended numbers.

British and other military information holders were considered special prisoners. So they had somewhat spacious, yet isolated chambers.

But the punishment to get them to talk was hang them on this pole, and 25 whips in lower back and they had to count in German. If they messed up they got it again. Some would collapse, and pass out due to pain. Some would get severe damage to organs, and with limited access to hospitals, they would also soon deteriorate and die.



About 1200 homosexuals were said to be imprisoned.

Of course, this has to be the somewhat flamboyant lot. Then there would have been the others who were “manly”, but who knew very well about their own inside story, but helplessly watching!

The “cure” for homosexuals was castration. Most ended up getting infections and died. They say more than 700 ended up being castrated and dying.

Unfortunately, end of the holocaust, didn’t end homosexual suffering. If they survived, as per the governing law, they went back to prison.

Only in 1993, homosexuality got legalised in Germany!

A little memorial existed within the camp for homosexuals. I had nothing to offer, yet everything to offer. Earlier this year, I received a rainbow coloured wrist band from Australian SES Fire Crew. I left it there in the memorial, only as a token, but I will carry them in my heart as long as it goes on.


A teeny-tiny, memorial also remains in a corner within the City. Opposite the Jewish memorial. If it weren’t for Martin, I wouldn’t have known it existed. Fortunately, on my way back to hotel, I went and had a look.


Did anyone try to escape the camp?

In 1936, 7 people tried to escape.

6 of them were crucified!

The 7th, when they found in Belgium 4 years later, was beaten up severely every morning.

After 3 such mornings he ran into the electric fence and killed himself.

Holocaust and the World Wars are Lessons for Humans, But Have we Learnt?

The amount of effort, careful planning, and creativity that has gone in to carefully addressing issue after issue that came up in their torture and killing facility, to be able to give the most amount of torture in the most silent way fascinates me…

If that kind of creativity and passion was channelled towards humanity….

But, we haven’t learnt…. After many decades, we still channel our creativity to kill. We still have wars, prisoners of wars, refugees of wars, and then groups who judge and discriminate them.

Dear Lord,

Why did you create humans? This doesn’t make sense!

Is this a tiny mistake in your coding? Did you mistype something, or create a feature which turned into a nightmare?

These days humans want to create robots!!

What if they create a similar mistake in coding!!!

Isn’t one such breed of idiots enough?

If you are really there, which I feel you are,

Help us!

Thankfully, what they tried to erase, couldn’t be erased. Soviets rescue mission worked for the aged, sick, and feeble who couldn’t walk or move.

It was only about 3000 prisoners, but Soviets gave them medicine and revitalised them.

Of course poor prisoners wouldn’t have trusted.

But they all got free. Some were forced to share information, and some others in later years, shared their pain and suffering. The world got to know how cruel humans can be.

I personally am disgusted by the level of cruelty.

In Sri Lanka, we had a president, Mr. Ranasinghe Premadasa. Him and his entourage, with his knowledge and order, and of course using his name, many other evil people, tortured and killed an entire generation of educated humans. I was around 7-9 years of age, when most boys and girls aged 17-25 was at the risk of being tortured and killed, whether or not they supported Communism.

The amount of dead bodies we saw, the amount of missing people, the amount of mothers, who never saw their son’s or daughter’s dead body, who couldn’t find closure. The pain continues.

Yet, we haven’t learnt!

The Holocaust was said to have ended in 1950. At least that is when this Camp I visited became inactive. It is 2019, 70 years have gone past. The pain still exists in the Camp, the energy speaks a million things.

But, the world continues to be run by ill will and hatred. Hopefully, one day, we realise and become kinder to one another.


– Nim –

Here I am again to Thank You…

I was hit hard with Love. Love brought me to Basel, Switzerland. I was living in a beautiful crazy lovestruck imagination.

When I saw the Etihad Airlines, waiting for me to board at Melbourne, Australia airport, I cried so much. I was afraid. I knew what ever the reality was, I would be confronted by it. My poor mother who was also waiting for her flight, which was at the next gate, couldn’t take her eyes off me, her eyes filled with worry, and kept on telling me:

Be strong, I will pray for you. Don’t think of the past, and enjoy your holiday and see the country.

I didn’t even feel the 14 hour flight as half of it, I cried.

It took me so much of tears and courage to spend each initial days in Basel. I knew I’m in the West and these are the lands of Christ. I knew I had to pay respect to him.

Jesus Christ was the Buddha in the West
Thich Nhat Hanh (During an Interview with Oprah Winfrey)

I always believed this. But most Buddhists don’t see it this way, so I was blessed to hear Thich Nhat Hanh’s words.

I came to pray here as although I was smiling and touring around Basel, Switzerland, I was hurting inside.

That was the day I had to stop my prayers half way through and write this article:

Since that day, miraculously my prayers were answered. I accomplished the first thing I came here for. To reconnect with the reality.

And I met some beautiful people in Basel. Some touched my heart so powerfully.

I will be leaving Basel, Switzerland tomorrow knowing I can easily live here. Yes, the country is a little backwards for my expectations, but behind that backwardness, the people are authentically beautiful.

I carry home some great memories of Basel, Switzerland. I carry home no regrets or no longing to be loved. I finally feel free.

So thank you, what ever the energy that is captured here. Thank you for looking after me for the last week and a half. Thank you to all love shown to me by all the people I met, including random strangers. Thank you all beautiful people I met. Thank you Basel, Switzerland.

Most importantly:

Thank you Dear Lord.

And last, but not the least:

Thank you Jesus for the love you showed, for being a human sacrifice. Thank you for tolerating all the pain given to you, but still giving us the message of Love.

I’m sorry that the world is not quite there. But, I will keep believing we are getting somewhere. I will do what ever little I can in the name of your love

– Nim –

What more do we want from you?

Here I am kneeling in front of you in a strange country, in one of those many Churches built with your name tag. Everything was written in German, but from what I’ve gathered, it is an Anglican Church.

Of course it gave me a relief to see a Church that I can go in and light a candle. I found myself praying for my own peace of mind, praying to help me ease my pain, and a peaceful earth.

But, while sitting for a while, taking pictures, It really bothered me that we, as humans, pray for more from the one who ended up teaching so much, yet got crusified. Two thousand years later, your pain and suffering isn’t enough for us, we want more. We still place this mess of a world in your hands.

I believe you did your job, you were a peace warrior, who got misunderstood by the community during that time. How vicious would have they been, to crucify someone who spoke of wisdom and peace. Someone who promoted nothing but love.

It really saddens me!

It terrifies me!

I believe it is no longer in the power of our prayers, but in the power of our actions. This country I am visiting seems a blessed nation, I can see people freely moving around, not too scared of their belongings being stolen. Although I did notice the occasional beggar on the streets, which confused me.

If each of us took action to be kind to one another, our prayers will automatically be answered. I suppose it’s easier said than done. Especially when greed for money, power, status, and aversion towards others who do not agree with one, or who is doing better, and the confusion of all mind objects come in the way. But we can still try. I’m sure we can try, but it needs a majority shift I’m sure, or the flame of love will die!

I’m sorry for bringing more of my burdens to you. Halfway through my prayer, I stopped. I can’t bother you or God anymore. All I can request God is help kind and humble human beings to be stronger than the cruel ones. And lead those cruel to understand humanity.

In my short life, thus far, my own good intentions got misunderstood, or misused plenty of times. The hurt it brought me was enough to break my heart into a million pieces. If petty little me felt such pain, what pain would you have felt to be hanging their on the cross, looking at your mother. What pain would you have felt! What an unbearable pain you must have felt. Would have been a lot more emotional pain than the physical pain of crusification.

After all that pain,

What more do we want from you?

What more do we pray from you?

Are we so powerless not to do something on our own?

– Nim –

The other end of Scripture – A true human heart

We live in a world full of Scriptures, and followers of those Scriptures, and those who reject those Scriptures.

But have we stopped to ever swim across any of these Scriptures, to the hearts of those individuals who made such an impact?

Let me do the guess work, the answer would be an easy “No”!

I may sound too confident to ask a question and to answer it myself. But the truth remains, that we as a world of human beings, have failed those beautiful humans that existed thousands of years ago.

Let us first consider, His Holiness, Prophet Muhammad. It is not a secret to know Islam has become one of the most rejected religions. It is unfortunate, as that is a direct reflection on the failure of a community that attempts to give the highest regard to their teacher, His Holiness, Prophet Muhammad. I have no doubt about that true human existence. I have no doubt about some of the members of Islam community. How can I? My father was one of them. So maybe, instead of fighting with those who reject, it is time to question ourselves, how did we fail him? I believe in that true human existence, and I believe in Allah. But, I doubt some of the community, only because of their blind faith. They have not stopped to consider what it would have been like to be that beautiful man, His Holiness, Prophet Muhammad.

The most vastly spread news is about that most amazing man who was crusified. It is said that Jesus Christ died for our sins. Of course we go to Church, depending on which group of Christianity, and pray to help us. But, we also hate Muslims, and dislike those who worship 33000 Gods, and maybe call some weird mediators hermits! Not only have we managed to make 500 versions of Christianity for One Jesus Christ, we also teach to hate or reject others! Those creations of the same God. That is an Epic Fail if you ask me. Why on earth did that man die for a useless bunch like us? Why on earth did he suffer on a cross, unable to sooth his mother whose heart would have torn into pieces, while her beautiful boy was hanging on a cross? Once again, we are too focused on the Scripture, and have little time spent to empathize with that human life wasted on us!

I will now speak of the man closest to my heart, simply because of my upbringing; The Blessed Gauthama Siddhartha. We have managed to completely forget everything about that beautiful man. Starting from his first talk, to the most famous talks, refered to as Sūtra, in the Pāli Canon, that man had spoken of cause and effect, and spreading loving-kindness. Yet, we hate Muslims, we reject all Gods, and we love selectively. Somehow, Buddha’s unconditional love, had turned into a conditional self-cherishing dillusional affair!!! And thus we have failed that Prince who gave up all his wealth, and hopes of his father, the King, who would have been in such pain when his Son was begging on the streets. We have failed miserably!! Let us please sit one night, imagining what it would have been like to be such a kind soul, to be cherished, even with blind faith after thousands of years.

There are many other Scriptures, if I am to go on and on. In Hinduism alone, we can discuss countless number of Gods, although I seem to have a few personal favorites, only because of a weird calling, but let me park that as well.

If you have made it this far into this blog post, may I please request one favour? Please keep following your Scripture, what ever the one you were brought up in, but try not to fail those valuable human sacrifices.

I will leave you with one question, or maybe two!!!

Do you think, if Prophet Muhammad, Jesus, Buddha, Lord Shiva (and the army of Gods), and many others met at a single gathering, they would be fighting about who is the better human being?

If that was the case, why would we respect them?

– Nim –

Do we only see you as an Alpha Male?

Did we teach you the wrong thing?
Did we ask you too much?
Did you have to be superman,
even when you could not?

Is that soccer ball,
Is that basket ball,
Is that cricket ball,
And that punching bag,
Your only friend?

Are there enough poems written about your love?
Are there enough songs sung about your heart?
Are there enough people who see through to your happiness?
Do we only see you as an Alpha Male?

Do you feel alone?
Do you feel lost?
Do you feel misunderstood?
Do you feel like you don’t know how?

Just like me, are you sitting alone today with just a soccer ball?

– Nim –

May the Prayer for Every Moment Be…

May every sight I see
May every sound I hear
May every taste I taste
May every smell I smell
May every touch I feel
May every thought I think
May every sensation that arise
May every emotion that arise
May every perception that arise
May they all be observed with intense alertness and
May every word I speak
May every action I take

Lead to the benefit of all beings….

May I continuously be connected to the oneness that exists through all time and space…

May I give my “self” in totality to the benefit of all beings….

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