Nim – A Moment with Nim!

Judgement Day…

Lust, Glits, and Glamour

13 Mar 2023March 13, 2023

Having my foundation human mind programming in Sri Lanka, I wonder, whether it is because Sri Lanka is a poor country, that people look at "Glamour", "Glits", "Wealth" as non-spiritual…

the way you need to love yourself

8 Apr 2022July 10, 2022

So I look back in timeTurning pages through the notebook in my mindThere you were validating me as lovableThe good, bad, and the ugly. I remember it like it was…

Friendship

A moment in time sharing silenceA taste of safety traversing unknownA word spoken with a knowing forgivenessAn experience of frienship writing eternal trust - Nim - (Nimeshe Dilraj Madanayake)

A Crazy Turn…

May you water my childhood seeds

When you cuddled me closeGave me a peck on my noseTouched me like I was a rose Long ago maybe,But,Even now I smell the comfort that rose! The touch of…

Now that you’re gone

15 Oct 2021October 15, 2021

Did you put on a smile?Did you try to be so kind?Did you hide your weary time?While you tried to fit our style Now that you're gone Do we love…

Gratefulness…

When one has to use another to have a good time – A story about me, myself, and I

10 Oct 2021July 10, 2022

I was in my own worldMe, my mom, my friend, and her son When I ran towards you, being cautious of my unwell back, carrying the kid's ball, rushing to…

A Crazy Turn…

To drown in shame only i know

9 Oct 2021October 10, 2021

Only a figure I see from a distanceBut I have been taught from innocenceTo know that the figure I see is masculineTo know that the figure I see is not…

Poem

Do you even know I exist?

Did you feel sad when I walked past you,as if you didn't even exist? Did you feel happy when I stopped near you,as if I knew you exist? Did you…

My gratitude to Australian Medical System and Emergency Services

So here I was about to fall asleep on a Wednesday night. I had taken a hot shower while listening to some spiritual music, and got myself to slowly wind…

God…

A heartfelt prayer

May those who hurt be healedMay those who need be givenMay those who bless others be blessedMay all of us who are lost be lead May our prayers be heardMay…

Introduction…

“But he is gay….” A random statement from one, years of therapy for trauma for another

About an hour ago I overheard my mother refer to a well known politician's name. It amazed me to observe some random memory from about two decades ago drawn into…

“It’s the effect of the ring” – A way to identify with our ego – A lesson from The Lord of the Rings by J. R. R. Tolkien

Last week I was quite busy watching the Harry Potter movie series on Netfllix. Believe it or not, I am one of the few who had never read or seen…

A Crazy Turn…

Being vulnerable to uncertainty vs. negative belief system – A review from a novice

7 Aug 2021August 8, 2021

Thus I've heard, the blessed Gauthama Siddhartha, the Buddha, had told us: Not to see the plans you make in thoughts as permanent or certain. Not to cling to what you…

Why do we cling to negative experiences? The reason for healing to take time…

6 Aug 2021August 6, 2021

So it's lockdown again for those of us living in Victoria, Australia. It's the sixth one. I was pretty upset when the announcement was made last night, as I am…

A Crazy Turn…

When I see you as “than me”…

Through those little curious girly eyesA world so big and beautifulAn ocean of possibilitiesI saw before I started ... To look through your eyesand compare you with meOnly to define…

Heal thyself – A book that helps queer heal themselves

5 May 2021May 5, 2021

Note: This blog post is my way of thanking Allan Downs, the author of The Velvet Rage, and my psychologist Beau Growcott who has been working with me and walking…

What if I never find true love?

28 Apr 2021April 28, 2021

This morning for my "reading of the day," I watched a couple of Youtube videos from The School of Life. One of them had the title "What if I never find…

Body image vs Mind image – A glimpse of accepting self

12 Apr 2021April 12, 2021

This morning on my way to work, while listening to The Velvet Rage, written by Alan Downs, PhD, I came across the below passage: The non-acceptance of your body is…

Mental Health…

Looking back – Some retrospective quotes

10 Apr 2021April 11, 2021

When you look back in life, and see your mistakes, in thoughts, words, or deeds, it is ok to feel sad; But you shouldn't forget that you didn't know any…

Judgement Day…

Back in the cave!

7 Apr 2021April 7, 2021

I judged you, so I built a cave.I live inside it with no one to blame. Then I get high to get out of that cave.When I come down, I…

Why do I sometimes wanna kill myself, yet can’t for a moment let “another’s” ego kill my “self”?

4 Apr 2021April 4, 2021

Why is it so easy to see another's ego?Why is it so hard to let another's ego win?Why does shame and guilt flood us, when we finally glimpse our own?Why…

Oh what a spiral of thoughts in my head! I’d just shut up and go to bed!

30 Mar 2021March 30, 2021

Isn't it such a wonderful feeling one feels when another truly appreciate their offering of themselves? When my nephew loved the Tuna Pasta I made, or when my friend's daughter…

නොමැති කම කොතනද?

හිසට සෙවණක් නොමැති කලතල් ගසක සෙවණෙහි සැනසිල්ලක් ගතට පැන් බිඳක් නොමැති කලතනි වූ පිනි බිඳෙහි නැවුම් රසයක් කුසට අහරක් නොමැති කලදුඟද කැතකුනෙහි පෝෂණයක් මේ සියල්ලම පිරුණු කලඇස මුහු හිරු කිරණෙහි…

නිවන මට කියනු මැන!

16 Mar 2021March 16, 2021

සැනසිල්ලක් පතාගෙනනැලවිල්ලක් සොයන් යනගැරහිල්ලක් නොමැති තැනකැලඹිල්ලක් හමු වූ විට කෙසේ මා සැනසෙන්නද?කැලඹිල්ලෙන් නැලවෙන්නද? නිවන මට කියනු මැන! - නිමේෂ -

The nothingness beneath

16 Mar 2021March 17, 2021

When the only things we see,are the memories of the forgone,But not the nothingness beneath them; Everything we foresee,Lighting fire to the present tense,Burry the nothingness beneath them! - Nimeshe…