Only a figure I see from a distance
But I have been taught from innocence
To know that the figure I see is masculine
To know that the figure I see is not me
To know that the figure I see is to be feared
So how can I see attraction
When fear and shame makes me look away?
To drown in shame only I know
My heart had started to race as you are closer now
I glimpse a full smile and a body to make me wow!
Masculine you, ” I really like!”
I want to tell you, but I don’t know how..”
So I look away,
When fear and shame makes me look away
To drown in shame only i know
I feel the time slow down as you are passing me now
My breath I feel and I am definitely in the now
Masculine you, that I really liked.
Here I am missing “you” again, as I don’t know how..
So I walk along,
When fear and shame stops me from looking back
Drowing in sadness only I know
– Nim –
(Nimeshe Dilraj Madanayake)