To drown in shame only i know

Only a figure I see from a distance
But I have been taught from innocence
To know that the figure I see is masculine
To know that the figure I see is not me
To know that the figure I see is to be feared

So how can I see attraction
When fear and shame makes me look away?
To drown in shame only I know

My heart had started to race as you are closer now
I glimpse a full smile and a body to make me wow!

Masculine you, ” I really like!”

I want to tell you, but I don’t know how..”

So I look away,
When fear and shame makes me look away
To drown in shame only i know

I feel the time slow down as you are passing me now
My breath I feel and I am definitely in the now

Masculine you, that I really liked.

Here I am missing “you” again, as I don’t know how..

So I walk along,
When fear and shame stops me from looking back
Drowing in sadness only I know

– Nim –

(Nimeshe Dilraj Madanayake)