Will you love me like a child?

Whether you came to me or vice versa
Whether you were seen or not or vice versa
Whether you were heard or not or vice versa
Whether you were felt or not or vice versa
Whether you were admired or not or vice versa

Whether we met only briefly or not
Whether we met in the same form or not
Whether we met in the same headspace or not
Whether we met in the same realm or not

If I got too close to you,
or moved away from you
If I looked at you too much,
or looked away too quickly
If I stopped breathing for you,
or breathed faster because of you
If I was direct with you,
or beat around the bush with you

Please know,
it was energy talking and energy exchanging
Please know,
I have very little control over it other than observing myself, and forgive, learn, and love
Please know,
I never want to disturb you
Please know,
I never want to disturb myself
Please know,
I mean no harm to others, even when I struggle to love myself
Please know, I sometimes like to have some fun, and sometimes I don’t have someone to share my fun with
Please know, I am sometimes fullfilled, but some other times feel a little lonely

Most importantly, please know,
I am doing the best I know or going with the flow

Disturbing one’s peace, I hate to do
But my parents peace, I disturbed a lot
Some friends I disturb, and they don’t mind all that much

But, I disturbed someone for way too long

I take the full blame, as I believed with no permission
I take the full blame, as I didn’t even listen to my mother
I take the full blame, as I wanted to be loved like a parent
I take the full blame, as I wanted to disturb like a child

But I promise now, I will not disturb another like that

Not unless we promise in front of our parents, that I can disturb as much as I like, and you will love me like a child

– Nim –

P.S: I can promise I can love you like a child

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