- It was getting close to a month A month without him.
- I can still hear him call my name.
- I can still hear him ask me:
“Why are you mean to me? Why are you disrespectful?”
- How could I hurt the one I love?
- We had so much passion.
We passionately talked
We passionately partied
We passionately walked
We passionately swam
We passionately hiked
We passionately made love
- When we disagreed,
I wanted to passionately argue.
- But, He didn’t want to argue, he would go silent. When he see my anger, in my screaming voice He would hug me and ask me:
“Why are you mean to me? Why are you disrespectful?”
- This is what haunted me,
Not our passionate walks
Not our passionate talks
Not our passionate fucks
But, my passionate anger and his kind response.
- For days I cried, I screamed On the phone, I told my mother:
“I love him so, I will die of a heart attack. I’ve never loved anyone this much.”
- As I was seeing hell on earth.
- His voice in my ears echoing day and night:
“Why are you mean to me?”
- But slowly it occurred to me,
Even if we had an entire life together, This what I go through is inevitable. One day we will part, When death do us part.
- What am I so in Love with? His gentle voice, but I can still hear it.
His gentle voice is in “My” “Mind”
- What am I so in Love with? His gentle touch, but I can still feel it.
His gentle touch is in “My” “Mind”
- What am I so in Love with? His breath on my skin, but I can still feel it.
His breath on my skin, is in “My” “Mind”
- What am I so in Love with? His eyes looking into mine, but I can still see them.
His eyes are still looking into mine, in “My” “Mind”
- Then I realized;
His Looks, His Voice, His Touch, His Smell, His Taste, was still in “My” “Mind”.
- I wanted it out of “My” “Mind”
- Before I went out of “My” “Mind”
- I wanted to Live
- I wanted to Live for Him
- I wanted to Live for Me
- But, I was dying.
- I was sure I’d get a Heart Attack.
- I imagined my death
- I imagine forever loosing him
- I slowly realized Not the absurdity of Life.
- But the absurdity of How we Live it!
This my friends, was my Crazy night, The night I had a Splendid Turn!
Sunday, 21st June 2015 Till dawn of Monday, 22nd June 2015
- I went to announce to my friends
Eureka! It’s all in your head! Physical existence doesn’t matter, When mind can project matter! It’s so simple can’t you see?
Let’s ring the Sales Bell, this is the biggest Sale? Send a Peace Message!
- I was hospitalised!
- In the Lunatic Asylum!
- I have too much brain activity, so they say.
- I have taken drugs, so they say.
- I am suicidal, so they say.
- I cannot operate in society, so they say.
Splendid Turn, for Me
Crazy Turn, for Them
Pills! Pills!! Pills!!!
A Moment with Nim! 
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